Feb 2005 The Morgue

Some how I've lucked out and have always had someone
else take the body away after I've done post mortem
care. No one to do it last night. I carried my infant
patient in my arms, covered by a blanket, down to
security to get the key and then down to the basement
morgue where I placed her in a bag. There's something
so weird and final about zipping up that bag over the
face. I placed her next to another tiny body in a
refrigerated room.

I keep playing the moment of her death over and
over.... her parents holding her, crying out her name.
Wondering if I was supportive enough for them......

Not an easy aspect of my job.